Wednesday, June 27, 2007
short one, i'm too lazy to blog much today. had work yday and my arms are KILLING me cos of the heavy trays.
ahem. very ACT SMARTS around here have very unkindly LAUGHED and pointed out in one of my previous posts, that the person who drowned himself on ba zhang festival is called QU YUAN. HAPPY NOW?? hahaha goondupads. well i'm sure we thank you all for that lovely history lesson -_-. come on la i know the story okay. his name is just a detail hmpf.
just to take this very self-righteous history lesson thing further, i shall take the initiative to tell the story. anyway the guy QU YUAN was damn upset cos his country was in chaos. i think. he was upset about some political thing. anyway to show his loyalty or sadness or some very patriotic sentiment, he jumped into the river ganges to kill himself.HaHAHA THAT my friends was to check if you were sleeping in class you naughty children. if you dunno what i'm talking about then i think you have greater needs than this hisotry lesson. anyway he drowned himself. touched by his bravery the villagers made those lovely ba zhangs to throw into the river so the fish would eat it instead, and not eat his remains. look, its a myth la huh. THE END!!
anyway i think my parents have had the last straw. i've got a bloody curfew now. wtf. i dont remember ever having such a stringent curfew since the beginning of time la... they've been strict but not like this :( that day my dad called me on the DOT to ask where i was. and i practically had to promise my mum the moon cos i wanted to stay out past the curfew clubbing today. sulk. they've even taken to consistently msging me now. ugh i feel like a kid!!! no i feel like cinderella. bleh.
i dont even know if i have the right to be angry with them la cos i guess i can see it from their point of view. miight have been a little bit out of hand now and then... but its HOLIDAYYSS honestly. boohoo :(
BUT. the good thing is now i can use work as alibi. :D haha! am i smart or what *smug smile.
AND knowing my mummy and daddy slowly they'll sorta forget :) i'll just lie in wait for a while...
hmmmm you know scratch that. my shoulders hurt when i like sorta arch my arms back. my whole body's aching!! scowll.... it better gimme some nice muscle tone -_-
anyway guess what. i FINALLY logged back on friendster after sucha long time cos of....superwhite's nagging HAHAHA. anyway now i've gotten all addicted to it again!! hahaha. sorta lost interest earlier cos i got bored la. anyhoo i'm willing myself not to become one of the obsessive types who log on everyday tho i might be falling to the dark side :D. resist!! eh but now its SO different from the old school friendster, and unfortunately it still hates me as much as i hate it. stupid technology. we should all live in a hippie world. all you need is love. and no computers. ughh!!!
2:27 PM
Tuesday, June 26, 2007
it was sobering
out of respect for her, this post is intentionally ambiguous
i hope only you understand cos thats all that matters
sadness is seeing you trying to hide your tears from us. it is realising some sort of emotional tumult are you trapped in that made me want to cry watching you pour your heart out
guilt is calling myself a friend yet dismissing the reality as something simpler, because i didnt understand it. it is being so caught up in my own gilded existence i failed to be a friend
helplessness is the feeling you're so near but i cant reach out to touch you. it is watching you there with us, but in your own world you dont share. it is feeling so powerless against something i'm sure we can make a difference to if only you'll let us
fear is how i'm so afraid we'll lose our lovely to something that its not worth it
i'm sure you know who you are. all we want is to see that familiar smile in your eyes again.
super trooper you'll come out unscathed
this is for you love- hugs.
12:46 AM
Friday, June 08, 2007
*Da Da Da Da
The smell of your skin lingers on me now
Your probably on your flight back to your home town
I need some shelter of my own protection baby
To be with myself instead of calamity
Peace, Serenity
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cryDon't cryDon't cry
The path that I'm walking
I must go alone
I must take the baby steps until I'm full grown
Fairytales don't always have a happy ending, do they
And I foresee the dark ahead if I stay
Like the little school mate in the school yard
We'll play jacks and uno cards
Ill be your best friend and you'll be mine
Valentine
Yes you can hold my hand if u want to
Cause I want to hold yours too
Well be playmates and lovers and share our secret worlds
But its time for me to go home
Its getting late, dark outside
I need to be with myself instead of calamity
Peace, Serenity
I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, Myself and I
We've got some straightenin' out to do
And I'm gonna miss you like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
Its time to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry
Don't cryDon't cryDon't cry
La Da Da Da Da Da
*because i'm hurting for you, set yourself free
11:28 PM
