black flowers bloom
haha so drama right. but lately everything in my life seems so ironic! i mean like the last year cursing the place and wishing we could be free of it and we voluntarily went back. to visit the banes of my existence. (teachers) haha
anyway me and steph met up first to print photos for the treasured few. haha. then was off to cj. the school still pretty much looked the same except for certain changes they gave the more favoured batch. pah. steph thought the plasma tv was really unjustified but i think the canteen was the most unfair!! the place is like much larger and more airy too. its actually habitable.
anyway we went into the office to get visitors passes and guess who we saw. da man. ugh. haha it was tan jek suan la. in all his co-VP splendour. hur. pity he shaved off his moustache i would have loveed to see what he looked like...! so we talked to him a while... actually more like each party trying to irritated the other and see who got irritated first. haha.
next we went to surprise ms lim at her class!! so, you may ask, how we knew her timetable and schedule?? haha we went where none of us had ventured before. we went... into the staff room!! allthe way in to her table. its amazing what a small peice of paper with the word "visitor" can do. instant access. haha. i took the liberty of messing up her papers. hehe payback time. so we went to her class and when she saw us it actually took her like what 5 whole sec to register. hhaha it was hilarious. obviously she didnt invite us to sit in (hmpf) so we went to look for micheal tan.
found him soon enough after wandering around the school. he looks so much older now! but guess what the new batch is so dull cos apparently no one has "taken your place...yet". haha oh yea! well its nice to know i left some sorta legacy in cj. hehe.
along the way we met mr poh. he literally stopped in his tracks and stood gaping at us. bet he thought we hated the place enough to never return. i guess not. anyway soon the bell rang and we went to meet ms lim. we got visitors treatment again! we ahem strutted blatantly into the staffroom, and we sat there with ms lim while she ate. it was so nice, just talking and laughing. until we decided we were too loud so we moved over to - get this- the teachers pantry. they have one?!
we continued our gossiping there. it was so fun! oh we saw mr chin and ms soong too... everyone except twitty ting.
anyway the thing which struck me the most was that we were literally given celebrity status! haha no seriously it was really warm and fuzzy i guess, like everyone seemed genuinely happy to see us (seriously). despite two years of complaining about our uniform, our attitude, our HW, or puncutality, our DC sessions, our record etc. i knew deep down inside they loved us. haha.
it was kinda nostalgic too i guess. like recalling all the stupid stuff that we put everyone thru haha.
sounds mad but i kinda miss cj. there i admitted it!! ehehe.
anyway after that me and fong fong went to town to catch a movie. memoirs of a geisha!! been waiting for that show ever since trailers. anyway it was really good! tho their english sounds a little odd... they actually gave eng subtitles. haha. a little draggy at some parts but overall it was great! my fave part was when she was all dressed up to do the sister binding ceremony with michelle yeoh... zhang ziyi is damn pretty. actually they changed some parts.. but whatever. gong li looks good too for an old lady. haha. we shopped for a little bit after that.
yesterday i had reunion dinner! before that i went to town to run a few errands... met baby for a while. i was in a hell grouchy mood cos of the crowds, the rain, pms.. everything in general. on top of that my shoe broke. so i was hobbling around gettin drenched and everyone rushing about. so you can imagine who got the worst of my temper. sorry baby :)
anyway we went to my grandma's house after that. it was nice catching up with my relatives and stuff, my cousins too. he wants to do philosophy in london which i thought was a kinda wierd degree. but i support that... the dare to be different thing going on. my grandma cooked everything as usual which was pretty amazing.... a little old lady to cook like 10 dishes. whoa. i mean i'm kinda lazy to even microwave my lunch so yea. hehe.
after dinner we were sitting around chatting and my aunt put on this cd she bought for my grandma. its like oldies. chinese oldies. as in really like the type ya hear in movies where like theres this old man fanning himself at some kopi tiam or something. it was soo cute!! kinda naff but it added to like the "grandma's house" atmosphere. it was nice in a fmaily way :)
today i went for another sit in at church. this week was pri 2s. they're soo tinyy and cutee. and they're a LOT more in control than the pri 5s. or maybe i have alr become immune to their nonsense. haha. they're young but thats the good part i guess, cos they listen to logic: older people= boss. haha. but i was kinda surprised cos the teachers were stern with them. they're jjust babies! haha i suppose ya hafta teach them right or they'll just run over you.
anyway i'm so excited. my birthday's coming soon!! don't really feel like growing old yet but hey, party and cake any day! yipee!
anyway life is suddenly looking much calmer now.. i finished most of my unpacking and i love my new room! but i need furniture. haha
i finished my 1 week stint at lancome too. luckily it was only a week. i don't think i could survive any longer... i actually fell sick! i concluded: it was a combination of stress, long hours at work, not enough rest, and the physical aspect of it... before any wise asses comment about how sissy it is, standing 7 hours non stop in heeled pumps is considered hell! esp since the last time i'd gotten any phy excercise was the last PE lesson at cj! the last PE lesson which i didn't pon. hehe.
so anyway thank god for my fellow comrades standing outside tangs tog, if not i would've died or boredom. i seriously never really got that phrase- i mean like die of boredom?-but now i think i do. so we made the most of our lovely pay by gossiping and chatting time away. their quality control is seriously bad... they never checked on us! not that i'm complainig la.
anyway i realised i live in a bubble... its surprising how different people's lives are, and how much i don't hear about what goes round in cj. hehe.
anyway i learnt some stuff at work :
1) singaporeans don't listen. i might as well have been part of the CNY decorations outside tangs. but i could've told you that before this job. i mean, i did do many many years of flag days.
2) singaporeans don't listen pt2. i'd be there blabbing on about how its a lancome anti wrinkle serum which boosts the level of collagen by 69% in skin and is inspired by laser treatment but ooh lucky you only 150 a small bottle such a steal blablabla, and some people are like "which brand ahh?" (i'm standing in front of this huge board which says lancome) or they smell the brouchure i give them. serum not perfume sample!
3) appearances are decieving. my supervisor (shall not be named to protect the identity of her child) looks like any glowing mother would. but nooo. she is a right little terror.
she kept wanting me to add more blush and eyeshadow. for heaven's sake the job appl didn't say i need to have an inch of make up caked on. besides we're supposed to look youthful(antiwrinkle?)... not like bozo the clown right.
and at the counter she hissed at us like some deranged animal when we were a little bit late. besides our presence there was not really superrr important (see point 1). lucky us if we had met her at the staff area she would've killed us.
she's openly nasty to other staff, like the security area people etc. sheesh. wouldn't kill you to be nice right. after the first day she seriously started to get on my nerves. so i had a plan. hehe. don't get irritated get even! haha how cheesy. anyway i decided to fight fire with fire. why take her nonsense? but don't get me wrong i won't jeopardize my work. so i used a higher form of aggression- passive aggression. muahaha. eg: taking a longer break. petty right. haha
can i get sued for slander for this?
4) there are so many trannies working at tangs beauty hall! like every big brand has one or two. the quintessential fashion accessory. haha. the trannie at the lancome counter was so sweet! she and our asst supervisor were damn nice. thank god. one psycho is enough (see point 3)
5) in the job ya have to be independant. they staggered our lunch breaks so we couldn't eat tog. and friends around town don't necessarily have the same lunch break as you. so sometimes i had to eat myself. yes. i always felt sorry for people eating themselves when i saw them, and one thing i could never bring myself to do was eat by myself. its so lonely. i can shop myself, walk around myself, heck talk to myself. haha. but not eat by myself. but i did it! i feel so empowered.
it was pretty ironic this job. i mean i had to wear a uniform, pull my hair back neatly, and make sure the blonde streaks were hidden. and not be late of course. kinda reminds you of something doesn't it?
esp ironic since i couldn't wait to start work, a diff env. haha.
all in all, psycho aside, it was fun! damn tiring but was a great experience. but then again tahnk god only a week. haha
anyway now i'm currently in a break... but started to look for a job alr. anyway they are looking for girls for the lancome counter at taka for fragrance. so everyone, you have been warned.
ciao!
Off guard, red handed
Now I'm far from lonely
I sleep, I still see you lying next to me
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I...
I need something average
Someone please just give me
Hit me and knock me out
And let me go back to sleep
I can't laugh
All I want inside I still am empty
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me I...
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I guess, I remember every clench you sent me
Un-harmed, im losing weight and somebody
Eyes closed so hard
I stopped your heart from beating
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me, I....
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
And it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
It's all that I've got
So deep that it didn't even bleed and catch me
So deep that I didn't even scream fuck me
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
and it's all that I've got
I'll be just fine
Pretending I'm not
I'm far from lonely
And it's all that I've got
And it's all that I've got
Yeah, it's all that I've got
All that I've Got
i love this song