black flowers bloom
i just came back from outing with fong and ron. i was supposed to go to the mgs thanksgiving thing iwth shar and the rest. but as usual nobody felt like moving. so. in the end after i went home i took a shower and went to meet them. didn't really do much but it was the best outing ever! first we had that feelin of total relaxation cos we had a whole free month stretched ahead (dun think about studying. just don't)and we just finished GP. and also ron's not going back!!! staying!! haha. tho he spent the whole time making a pest outta himself-like blowing crumbs onto my skirt and being sick( hello? giving his straw a blow job. yuk!)- i was kinda glad we'd still have to tahan his nonsense for a long time. huh!
well i ended school on quite a bad note. considering the fact i totally screwed up gp. and. i'm on two more teachers hate list.. and vice versa.
1) that stupid biaaatch ms smith. she devil. and i actually hated miss lee. oh my god i should count my blessings i got that angel and not the smith bitch as a pe teacher. well anyway the story goes like this. and i know some of u have heard me ranting about this for liek the umpteenth time. just let me get it out of my system or i swear all that pent up anger and i'll just rip the Smith Bitch's face out.
me/ ms smith can i do PT today instead of games. (cos i decided i was getting flabby and needed a workout. becos i got a gold(really!) i was presently in games.)
Smith Bitch/eh! what do u think this is some sorta hotel can just change when u want!!!(see?! the Bitch just lashed out at me) no u decide now and stay permanently in one.
(ok i admit my face at this pt may have gotten one shade darker. ashton and kelly were callin me so i went over to sit with them and the rest of the Golds.) then suddenly ok. suddenly!!
SB (thats smith bitch btw)/ seymone!!! (she was super-roaring-i dun even think yelling is the term for it. she was looking at me but calling seymone. so hello? my name doesn't seem to be SEYYYYMONE so i just looked away. her eyes are a bit cocked (for real i'm not being mean) so i wasn't sure if she was looking at me.) seymoonnne!!!( she continued roaring like some dememted banshee la.)
me: (finally i realsied it had to be me just as the same time ashton said i think its u. so i went...) i'm lisa.
sb: come here
me: i'm LISA.
sb: i told u to decide which one u wanted. dun go ditzing around floatin around like some social butterfly.its a priveledge to be in games so u dun have to sit there discussing with your forum (presumably i was discussing with my forum kelly and ashton) with a poout on your face. so u decide NOWWWW! PT or games (hello. is the woman stupid or what. she actually thinks i would go back to games with her?! no way. not happening. i rather kill myself doing PT forever than see that horrendous fugly bitch's face!)
(mind you she was screeching at like 1000 decibels. and she actually screamed herslef hoarse-her voice broke. ha.)
me: i want to do PT/
sb: what?
me: i'm going to do PT (then i just turned and walked off. i was not about to stand around and wiat for more)
apparently after that she said "what a ditz". and told the real seymone," sorry seymone just now i blasphemed your name". shes not careful and she'll kena kicked outta cjc. ok u bitch. this is war.
and the thing is miss lee is leaving in june and we're getting a new teacher. i hope its not her. or pe will be an even worse than it already is. i'm sorry to miss lee for all the times we irritated her. we didn't know we were lucky when we were.
and btw. whos the pe teacher-whos the ditz to you., Bitch.
2) ok the second thing was econs lect. the Cow was lectureing and i think cos it was like hols were coming so we were a little bit more restless. also we were in like the last row and ms soong was not walking around keeping watch so i guess we took the opportunity to play! haha.so me kelly nd rachel were just fooling around writing stuff like DeeDee( haha hi kelly!) and jason newin(hi rach!) and some other nonsense stuff on each other's papers. tickling each other. then suddenly the Cow screamed "lisa!!! stand up!" . into the mic summore. ouch.then the LT got like damn silent. "stand UP!" and the girl on her left and right. "needless to say all 0f us didn't budge."you all are sitting there. tickling and teasing each other. (the LT started a twitter.paiseh can!)(then she gave us one of her famous lingering Cow glares)"next time and i'll kick you out of the LT. "
i'll just like to protest that it isn't fair. usually i'm quite well behaved and this is the first time she caught me. she catches ppl like sandy so often and even they dun get the Kicked out threat. bah. i know they hate me. mrs yap also gave me the Kicked out threat beofre. am i that terrible?
anyway i'm not as pissed at the Cow than i am at the SMith Bitch. cos i think the Cow actually had basis to be mad la. we were kinda distracting her and making noise. but the Bitch is a total Bitch. total whatever to you woman.
so. as u can see i'm kinda glad for the break from all of this nonsense.
hey you. thanx for all the help with Gp and your suggestions and stuff. haha i was really just expecting a oneline kinda answer but you went to that whole extent...mail box summore!
well anyway gp didn't really go too well huh. but. thanx really for all ya effort and all. i may not show it but i appreciate it.
well anyway i went to watch troy. with ron tessa jolynn jz kenny and fong. it was like damn great show. i soo wanna watch it again!! the saddest part was when hector died!!! waaah!! oh and jz was like crying super majorly. haha! it was so loud her crying! haha cute la that one. haha. all of them came in yucky cj pe shirt/ haha except ron and kenny cos they're so damn hiao. vain.
and me and fong too. cos guess what?! we skipped school!! haha. we went to AMK poly clinic like damn early but turned out mornings were even more crowded than aftns!! like i waited so damnnn long to see the doc. i used the same nausea excuse. but. this doc was smarter than the last time one. he checked my tongue, pupils. did some sethoscope thingie. asked me to lie down to press my belly. i must've looked really terrified cos i was. what if the bugger sent me off without an mc?! i was like telling fong, young docs usually damn goondu or damn smart. easy to see which type i got. bah. in the end he said "i can't find anything wrong with you but stress does make ppl feel nauseaus. and you stayed up really late to study yesterday right.so i'll give you an mc" damn right i did. ha. anyway bless him for not putting me in a spot. then after that we spent the rest of the time bumming around fong's house. i tell u. i loove her room!! its so relaxin and cosy!! haha. we ate choc cake too!! then we spent the rest of the time chattin. gossiping. reading mags,roald dhal. helping her choose her clothes. irritating russel(poochy!). listening to MJ!! and her Perhaps cd! felt so relaxed! haha needless to say we were late la.
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well anyway when i went home i had intended to watch nip tuck! but i fell asleep and the rest was history. hhaha.
well anyway this morning i woke up with six missed calls. kenny and fong/. god. you know why. i was supposed to call kenny when i reached home. but. i went to sleep/. and apparently when fong called a little later in the morning, i found out they spent the better part of midnight fretting outta their minds thinking something happened to me. good grief. i was really touched that they even worried! hey you two thanxx soo much, and i promise i'll never fall asleep again!! yea right. but i really appreciate it guys *muuuah
the rest of the day nothin much happened. i napped. studied my math. hey i'm actually starting to understand!! well so far la. had math tuition.
oh today was my sister's bday. i managed to find a perfect gift for her when i went out. an anklet. killing many birds with one stone.
1)the one i bought for her was much much much nicer than her existing one la huh =)
2) no bell! problem solved.
3) i knew she would like it la
its damn pretty! it has l9ike waves and blue beads. pretty! haha she loved it to bits la. and shes wearing it now *beams with pride* i am such a nice sister. hahaaa!!!
*happy birthday dumb ass*
well anyway when she went out today the freak lost her wallet. third time in like half a year. bird brain to the max! so she called me from town after my tuition and she was like mega freaking out.as in to the extent of incoherence. so i talked to her while she walked from taka to mandarin to cine--retracing her steps. poor girl. she had a blister to add to it. and it was so bad her socks had blood!!
she didn't find it la. and it took her super long to get a cab. she was like mega whining. but wouldnt' you huh. whatta bad thing to happen.
alrrite. she just reached home. now shes telling me about some ah lians... ...omg. she almost got into a catfight in town!! those lousy school bitches commented on she and her frens being *ang moh kia. wtf. stupid ching chong assholes. so they actually started exchanging rude remarks. until my sisters fren told them to fuck off. i don't like to use that but whoa man. atta girl. put them in their place!! so terrible huh. for nothing go pick on ppl...on her bday summore. like whatever.
anyway i wanna go watch teev now. later.
well. i have a break out. i hate it and i feel so down. like pimples everywhere. sad sad sad. i think its becos of:
1)stress frm the stupid bio and chem tests. i mean like wth right. 2 tests in ONE day. and hello. to study chem bonding, energetics and states bad enough. add in biological molecules!!! and biological molcules?! i'm not even gonna start. it is inhuman.
2)chocolate overload. argh. damn that stupid craving. and no self control. those things should be banned!!
3)my hair in my face.
so i have like a big fat breakout now!!! and its all my fault. gah gah. well anyway. i ended up falling asleep yesterday so i didn't study finish for bio or chem. i was kinda lucky la. cos i (hopefully) managed to bluff my way thru chem still appearin to look as if i knew what was going on. and bio? for all it was worth (the huge think stack of notes, the complicated drawings, the lengthy explanations...) all that came out was pretty much sec 4 stuff. unless i'm off tangent la. and can tikam tikam kinda answers. of cos theres a possibility i tikam wrong la =P
well anyway. after the test was over i could finally relax a little. calm my overwrought nerves
speaking of overwrought. the other day i finally blew. the stress from studying the chem, not understanding the chem bonding... all my math undone and so utterly lost. bio as well...not even started studying bio molecules. i finally just snapped. i'm not gonna describe what happened la so paiseh. but safe to say Woodbridge was not involved and i didn't go screaming into the night. i just was so stressed up. and the thing was my family was there for me. my mumsy and my dad talked it thru with me. and my sis actually went to get MnM's white chocolate for me!after that i felt much better la/
the thing is/ i feel like such a shit. cos for all the times i took them for granted and got pissed at them for offering advice. lost my temper. was indifferent.
yea. and they still can be bothered. they still care. really puts reality into perspective la. *love them
well anyway. my sister just bought this anklet. and its driving me NUTTS!!!it has a freaking bell!!! and shes jingling along. it sounds like santa's sleigh strapped on her ankle la huh. but i will be nice. anyway. her bday's coming up soon la. gotta figure out what to get her.
i wanted to blog about today. but shar that twit face just sent me this FREAKY pic. i'm not going to describe it spare me the trauma. gahhh!!!! (look. if anyone is painfully curious. let me know. i'll send it to u.) anyway the pic is like a screen saver!! it blocks off the desk top so all i see is IT. argh.
well anyway its kinda late. and quiet and dark. and i'm kind of gettin paranoid over the little noises i hear now. thanx man shar. so i guess i'll just blog about today, tmr. whatever.
anyway i know this happened awhile back but i only got a chance to blog now. yea. a moment's silence for nick berg. i tell u these iraqis. terrible. my sis fren sent her the video of the beheading. i was absolutely horrified. when they started waving his head in the lens. i thought i would retch. the extent of repulsion, not at the head but at the vicious act. good grief.
i mean i know they are prob doing it as a form of revenge against the abuse of the iraqi prisoners. but i mean like the guy's innocent la! and its so cruel. behead ok. behead. i won't even do that to an animal!! and this is a human ok!
wth. too shocked for words.
rest in peace.
in the mornin it was baaad. as in really all time low. first i heard the bad news. i won't say it here so he can tell others when he himself is ready. well anyway i dunno. i didn't really absorb it when fong told me. it seemed so unreal i think my system rejected it. well i dunno. its like everything is surreal normal,then now and then i suddenly realise like wham u know the reality of it all. its like on-off.
then another bad thing was i found out yen couldn't make it for lydia's bday. i was quite upset. cos i was lookin forward to seein her again. and when we talked on the fone i missed her even more. i mean wny couldn't she just have gone to cjc. ok i sound crooked. but i really miss ya yeo yenlin u toot!!! well anyway we promised and confirmed our girls nite out with lyd next week fri i think.
so as u can see the morning was turnin out to be really shitty. i didn't wanna go for the party cos i felt so low. then ron convinced me to go. sigh. aren't i lousy huh.
well i tried to read thru some of chemical bonding but i dun understand a single bloody thing. i mean like i dun see the point of learning whatsit shapes of nonsense thingies when we can't even see the damn things. argh!
well anyway soon i left to meet kenny in town. that guy has absolutely too much time ok. how come i dun seem to have enough time then?! well anyway i was persuaded to go to town. we just hung out walked around. and went han's to have ice cream! haha ice cream made the day a little better.... strawberry too!then i had to leave to go for lydia's party. actually i gotta admit i felt kinda lazy about gooing i mean its like all the way in east coast!!! but now everythings over, i dun regret going- i'm glad.
ok well anyway we left to go to paya lebar. i tell u he was being such an idiot on the train snatching my fone and stuff. the other ppl mustve thot we were nuts. well anyway we were talking and guess what. we missed the paya lebar stop. -_- so we had to get off and take another train back.
when we were finally at paya lebar, we crossed the wrong bridge. so we had to back track to go to the right one. -_-. loser land huh. haha! well anyway we finally got the right one and i left to meet ron and tessa. kenny had some class thingie so he went back to orchard. thanx bro!
on the bus i tell u there were all these banglas and vietnamese, mainland workers. i was damn freaked ok. they were talking at the top of their voice and glaring at me. so damn chor lor. gah gah. .... finally parkway parade. i got of that bus thankfully. becos of all the retarded mistakes, i was like damn bloody late!! so i finally met tessa and ron. who didn't manage to carry off the story that they were like majorly pissed at me. haha!sorry darlings!!
so we went to mac's to do lyd's card. and they ate. i thot it was kinda dumbie cos we were headed to a bbq. but. i was proved worng huh!
then we finally left for the bbq. i hafta say all our worryin was worth it to see lydia's reaction when she opened her gift. i was so scared she'd hate it ok. but. who can hate roxy huh! haha okok i'm being brand-ist. as in like racist. haah!!!
well i was afraid i wouldnt really know any of lyd's frens, but i saw addy there! haha and tiang and germaine too...the only og ppl besides me who showed! i had a really great time catching up with germaine and all her happenings in ac. was great finally can keep in touch. i kidded around with addy that bunch and that psycho kept wanting us to catch the ice she spat out. with our mouths. wth?!
the only bad thing was by the time we came we were so bloody late that there was hardly any food. and there was no drinks. so i guess tessa and ron were smart after all.
and actually for a combined party(lydia's and this guy shawn) it wasn't very crowded. it was big enough to be fun but not too big la huh
i also got dunked. again. into the frggin sea la dammit. in the dark. i was messin around with addy when she suddenly turned MORE psycho than her usual self and grabbed me. then ron the ever ready grabbed me as well and lydia (my soul sista u) joined in. tessa u betrayed the sister hood. she joined in too. they all ganged up on meeee!!!
i can't really remember what happened cos it was so fast. all i remember was i was shriekin like some mad ass twit and addy sayin " i can't hold her i can't hold her shes too heavy" and in between someone pulling off my socks and sneakers. they carried me from like the pit all the way down to the beach k. damn strong/ well anyway they didnt' really swing me in cos i think finally addy couldn't take the wieght. so only half my body went in. then ron had to drag me in even more.
when i looked back like the whole party had come to see me being hauled into the water. wonderful. next time i think maybe i won't screech. yes.
the best part was. my handfone was in my pocket ok!!! but ron had his great idea and method so i wond't get spoilt.
i was the only one to get thrown in la! next time i'm gonna get u all!!!! apparently they were all in the conspiracy it wasn't impromtu ok!!!! finnne everyone just go betray my sisterhoodd....
then we cut the cake! two cakes for both of them.
haha after that the party became quieter cos ppl like addy and her loud mouth started leavin. (haha hi addy!!) lydia walked me to the toilet and we managed to get a little catch upping done. =)
soon after i had to leave and i borrowed ron's tee and berms. cos i think the taxi uncle wouldn't have let me into the cab the state i was in la. smellin like the seawater huh!
i tell u i dunno how guys buy their clothes k. or maybe i'm just too scrawny. i couldn't walk normally without holding the berms up or it wouldve just fell right off my ass la. i looked like a wannabe hiphopper.so i made ron and wizardson(did i spell it right?) wait with me for my cab. i mean hello, if i stood there myself the wannabe hiphopper,sure kena beaten up.
well anyway i dunno if it was the vodlka he drank or what. but ron started acting stupid. well dumber than usual la huh. he started pretending to hump the pole. good grief. i was so glad wizardson was there too or i wouldve to actually admit to being associated to ron by myself. he insisted he wasn't drunk. can't tell.
haha. well that aside. thanx anyway you two for waitin with me
so it was kind of a bittersweet day. i know it sounds overused and cliche. but its true. the day was so damn fun i came home feelin so high! but i think i wouldve been happier if there hadn't been any bad news.
i'm sure i'm not the only one who feels that way~
ok so i came to school just in time. not really la i was kinda late. then i met shar at the bus stop. and insisted i wanted to go up to get my tie in class. what did the twit say? nooo don't la. i finally insisted we start moving so we did. when i was gonna run up? again. nooo... don't la. so i figured that if i went up i would be late for assembly.so i didn't. (btw sharmaine teo yu lin. u so owe me one huh)
and guess what?! of all days they decided to pick on the never wear tie ppl on that day. the past few weeks nothing like that ever happened. only this bloody week. william hung told the never-wear-
tie ppl to go gather. they took down our names and guess what. we had to do maintenance. detention? nooo. maintenance. as in physical work. wth right. i tried to reason with him and yati that it was in class but they were being such insufferable unresonable idiots. so fine. i went to GP in a huff.
and at Gp guess what? of all weeks ms ting finally decided to be self righteous and check that everyone handed in their GP journals. of all weeks. last week or the week before did she? nooo. only this week. and she insisted on wanting the Gp AQ question done by that day. usually she doesn't even check! and i got like a bloody 20 outta 50 for my Gp test. which meant i had to sacrifice my second break for Gp extra class. wonderful man.
ok then after that i pretty much spent the whole day catching up with my hw. as in like doing my hw under the table while other lessons went on.. cos i had just spent my whole weekend studying stupid chinese. and so most of the bulk of my hw wasn't done. it was damn bad and i was pretty exhausted by noon.
last period i had pe. i had this wonderful plan to cut pe. at first it seemed as if my plan wasn't gonna work. but. it did! ok so actually i gotta gold (hey to all u skeptics out there. i did ok) but i wanted to switch to doing PT instead of the games. cos most of them were in PT.
ok so my original plan was to go into the PT class then sneak off halfway. cos probably got so many ppl they won't miss one right? wrong. they were like super serious. so after doing my TEN rounds with fong, i was like," why am i putting myself thru this?!" so i ran out of PT class.mission accomplished! ha! its just whether it could succeed or not(luckily it did). fong told morisette lee that i went back to join the games. ha. so i sat at the grand stand with lydia and shar's fren sarah, trying to rush my bio/math/gp, at the same time trying to convince shar to cut pe to come sit with me. later kenny came and we ended up talking. so as usual. my bio was not completed. damn my short attention span. bah.
well anyway the best part of the day was: the knowledge i had managed to get myself sucessfully outta pe and watching those POOR POOR PT ppl do things like crunches etc while i just slacked around in the grandstand. and. it was like so cooling. i felt happier.
today. today i got my Final warning for my dyed hair. they were being so shitty about it. even mr poh. he seems to have gotten mind implant or something. suddenly so serious about the rules... skirts blouse socks hair. anything. so since he seemed like he would have a heart attack tmrw if i didn't go dye it back i went with fong after school to get hair dye. i have just finished dying my hair. i bought like the darkest black possible. SHOW them la dammit. i'm going to bring the bloody hair dye box tmr as proof!!!!
so. tmr i'm going to look like some freakin mainlander. gah. gah.
i feel utterly drained. good bye world!!!
well anyway. today was like such a great day! well actually yesterday since i'm doing this like at 3 inthe morning. of the next day. whatever.
1) we started school officially at 10!!! haha cos there was this award ceremony and we weren't involved.
but. huixin wanted our grp to come at 8. 8 in the morning!! but i managed to persuade her to change it to 830. big diff huh. haha. in the end i showed up at like 915. i know i have a problem with puntuality. i'm working on it everyone(esp fong. see. i'm getting treatment) well anyway to my pw members. i'm so sorry darliiingggsss!! i will be the FIRST to start pw stuff next time promise *smile
so i got to stroll in leisurely at like 9 plus knowing that it was late.but. that i was not late for school!! haha yea la cheap thrill. but still. wonderful feeling!!
the day went ok after that. the only thing was that i had a 510 day. bah. but the good thing was....
2) i went to toowwwn!!! finally. was supposed to go with ron to watch 50 first dates. fong couldn't come wtih us cos she was meeting jess. so i was stuck with nevis. haha! kiddin. well we left fong at tangs and went to cine. we went to book tix and it seemed quite bad seats la huh. well anyway we went to meet kenny and jz for dinner at pastamania. it was fun man! gossipin and chattin and stuff.
i tell you, as fong puts it: ron alone=bad enough. kenny alone=equally bad. ron AND kenny together=omg. those two are like super crappy la! but damn hilarious. ha
kenny decided to watch with us too. jz couldn't watch with us cos she was watchin with that *special guy on their *special day. tmrw. so cute!! haha. so anyway we were like eating dinner. and i saw some frens! lipin with her pri school frens. lydia and someone. shijue and her usual bunch. ron also saw someof his cjc kakis around. later jess and steph came to meet us. chatted for awhile.
oh yes. and ron and kenny ah. act brave those two. there was this rj gal. a bit big. not fat. as in very strong looking, yea. strong looking. aiyah shes prob like some jock or smth. anyway she was like damn garang looking la. then her hair was all let down and all over her face. goodness. she looked damn messed up. a messed up cavewoman. those two have no sense of tact. they started openly suaning her. about anything and everything. her looks to the fact that oh nani nani poopoo we have a seat and she didn't. boliao la. so me and jz were left there trying not to be too paiseh -_-. ha. i tell u rj girl
wouldn've bulldozed those two if not for the fact that we were in town and had to be civilised.. it seems to be a job to suan ppl la huh ron.
oh and later i found out we actually cut the queue to get our place!!! terrible. maybe thats why rj girl looked so...garang. whatever la. for the record i didn't know i did it till we sat down and ordered. but ron did. wahahaha.
ok before the movie i decided to walk jz down la. so everyone trooped along. and guess who i saw near long johns. yenlin!!!! and mel. we hugged and chatted and stuff. and like so promised to meet up-me, her and lydia-to catch up one day. i really miss that girl and i'm really afraid we'd drift apart. super hafta go out one day. cos it would be a real loss to lose a fren like her* love you girile!!!! muaaaah!! come visit me okie.heh.
well anyway we went for the movie la. it looked kinda wierd. two guys and a gal. well anyways. they purposely sandwiched me in the middle la! so both can suan me at the same time. ha. the show was pretty ok. the only thing was i found the supposedly happy ending kinda depressing. will not elaborate cos i dun wanna be a spoiler for those out there.
after the movie we went over to heeren cos. ron that big fat softie wanted to get something for The Tessa. as how kelly tan puts it. haha. we ran into them at the crossing. kelly and lange. they went "usa!!!"really loudy. goodness. the ppl in orchard must be wondering what kind of name is that. as in you-sa. inside joke. nvm. anyway they were with liping and a whole bunch. didn't really notice who la.
then ron kenny and me went to bloomington's to search for his beloved's gift. i tell u ah. if u think i take damn long to decide. wait till u meet ron neil nevis. finally he settled on like these heart shaped sugar thingies. and a card. thanx to who? yours truly. haha. oh and kenny. hahahahaha.
finally we left orchard. as usual nevis the brat took a taxi. and me and kenny had to walk all the way from cine to far east to take bus. i met sharmaine's audrey on the bus! i always seem to be running into that girl on 54 man!! haha. well anyway kenny got off at my stop. to walk to macritchie to change bus. so mafan right. the twit didn't take his direct bus la.
he walked me to the gate which i was quite thankful for. cos it was like damn quiet and like theres this rumour of a flasher along that stretch recently. much thankies bro.
so as such my fun fun day ended!! sigh. now gotta get back to studyin. i actually fell asleep without bathin just now cos i was so damn exhuasted. but. my mum woke me up pretty rudely, i must add, to bathe. thanx mumsy or i wouldve woken up tmrw like damn smelly la. oh yea. i also feel a bit bad cos i kinda told my mum i had this pw proposal due today so we had to rush it till about 10 so we could hand it in on monday latest. just so i could go out. oops. but really i really needed the break, as kenny said.
so niteys. gonna doze offffff......