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Sunday, October 31, 2004

ok i know that was dated waaaay long ago but only appeared nowww... sigh technology. who ever understands it. anyway i haven't blogged for sooo long i can't even blame exams now. but i guess i'm happy i'm at least busy with FUN stuff so i can't blog. at least its not exams.

oh i got my promo results. i'm getting promoted!!! yipee yipee yo yo. thank you God. i got B C C E. E for bio. now i hafta think up some reason why i deserve to continue taking bio. and i hafta sort out the editorial lit pub stuff. and i thought publicity was gonna be easy. wth was i thinking. but i'm gonna try to live up to it and not disappoint those who believed in me. *

and i still have bloody PWWWW!!! the bane of my existence. my OP is on tues. and this fri got chinese but i'm still relaxin. die.

well sooo much has happened i dun even know where to start. slowly..

oh! as of 23 oct sat.... i was no longer a virgin. a clubbing virgin that is. hur hur.
went with rach,the cindy chuachua, lydia, jo, xinghui and her frens to jason's party at sos. well everyone said it was pretty normal but i guess me rach and jo first time so like damn fun. haha oops. met lotsa familiar faces there. it was damn funnnn!! haaha. the dancing was the greatest! we played cindy's dare or dare game
... honestly. i had to do such RETARDED shit la huh. like dancing on the chair. kissing lydia. i won't go on. but i guess it was so dark no one could see my face. thank god haha. haha i like the dancing! haha. oh and jolynn luo got high ok. she was like crazy on the dance floor. but it was damn funny! fun. and i was actually planning to sit and watch the ppl dancing. thanx rach =)) we stayed till the party ended when i thought i lost the friend's ID. i was so scared la huh. cindy's face damn black summore she says cos it was sleepy. i didn't dare to tell her k. and guess what. it was with her. rolls eyes. but thank goodness.
after that we had no where to go cos of some last min changes. so guess what. we went to stay at-get this-fragrance hotel. what kind of lousy shit hole is that. honestly. it was sooo el cheapo. the rates were even cheaper than Hotel 81 k. no i don't have that at the back of my mind, we checked. haha. but we didn't have a choice! belive me we tried everything. cindy and rach took one room and me and jo the other.
me and jo left the lights on cos we were afraid it was haunted. eh seriously it was like bloody ulu in some farny part of balestier *shudder. but when i saw BED! i just jumped in and i fell asleep damn fast. the last thing i remembered was some iron chef show. whatever. my first experience.
hey guys next time we must plan properly! haha no more hotels. we go crash someone's place. i had a great time, to all those who made it special... sometime soon babies!!

ok i've been going out and spending alot. baaaad. i bought like lotsa new clothessss happy happy.
i went to watch Grudge with rach, the chua chua, lange. that was the worst mistake of my life. and the best part was I suggested watching it. i was and am still so bloody freaked out after the show that i dun dare to be alone in the house, the toilet. i have to sleep in my sister's room. so lousy right. and other ppl aren't even that frightened la huh. but seriously. that "errr" noise is making me damn scared! ok i've sworn off horror shows FORR... this month. and lange still keeps making that noise at me!!! humpf.

3:06 AM

Sunday, October 17, 2004

promos are oveeeer!!!yay...!
but actually given the outcome of the papers i shouldn't be so happy. econs was my best paper and econs was baaad. so. how the rest went should be pretty obvious.

math was the shittest of the lot. didn't study trig so i totally ignored all trig questions. the first three month work i was banking on let me down la. i concentrated too much on chem which was
later. bloody hell *thoughts aloud.
chem i had the weekend to study but the paper was horrendous. section B esp.
bio...bad.
so i really need a miracle to get thru alive. God if u can hear me it would be nice to get my christmas present early.

oh well. i know this is not the right attitude...but seriously screw it.
pray like mad.

well i had lots of stuff happening after promos ended...which is good! haha i'm not complaining.
the day before the econs paper i was giving the last stretch all my effort. me and rach were on the phone-get this- studying together. as in holding the phone in silence most of the time so we won't fall asleep. don't ask me it was her crackpot idea.when my mum came in and saw me talking at 2 something she went bersek so i got off. but i guess it worked cos i managed to stay up. hopefully it was reflected in the econs paper.
anywayss after the paper i went to rach's ultra ulu house in woodlands. took the bus with chard. both of them are fellow ulu-ers. haha. helped her choose her clothes and watched her put on her stupid make up and look pretty while i was still stuck in my cj uni. ew. technically i could've borrowed her clothes like last time but... i was feelin lazzyyy... haha. i was damn drowsy la falling asleep while waitin... her bed was just too nice! haha i lurrve rachel's happy housssee of fun!!haaaarrr whatever. then we met cindy chua and had lunch together. me and rach supposed to go trim our really grown-out hair but our usual salons were fully booked. i was like half dead la and like gonna collapse so i left town. rachel and chuachua-->sorry babies if i was kinda distant that day kkayss. post exam fatigue. grin.
so i went home and went....swimming! i just lazed about the pool realxin finally... did laps. it was good workout and R&R except for a few retards and idiots in the pool. i ran into sneha at the pool i had a good chat with that RJ freak prodigy. haha. then i sat around reading mags and listening to the radio. perfect day*

on thurs i met my LONG LOST FREN olivia. haha. we were supposed to go shopping but guess what. i couldn't find anything!!! the clothes seem to be getting worse and worse. aiyah. was very fun!! we had a good chat session and caught up with everything. and major bitching session about some people. wahaha. was just like the sec 4 times. chang--> we have to have a weekly outing no matter what k! was real fun!
then was off to trim my hair at juz for hair. rach and chuachua dropped by for a while.
the pretty girl cut my hair. she's so sweet honestly. when i was not satisfied with the first outcome (no i'm not a difficult person) she like willingly redid it without like a black face or whatever despite the fact that she actually had completed it already, as in like blow dried and styled finish. and she chats too so its not boring. maybe i'll go there next time. but i still like michelle to do my hair. oh well.

on friday it was The movie marathon daaay!! i met fong and was 5 min late only! honestly its like the best record so far. we went to book tix for movie then lunch at Lips cafe. too bad i was a little short so i didn't have the usual Suicidal Blue thingie. had devilishly hot wedges which weren't devilishly hot anyway so i could take it. with lots of ice tea. haha.
we were gonna watch white chicks. from the producers of the scary movie series. ok ok so i was a little apprehensive at first. i mean honestly i figured it'd be the type of show where they have retardedly stupid things just to get ppl to laugh. how to say... ...u know what i mean? haha ookay. well anyway we watched it. and its like the best movie ever. recommended! haha i laughed and laughed till i cried as in for real. i had these stupid tears coming down and no tissue. argh. i had cramps la huh from all that laughing. was soo soo funny. it was a really feel good movie la.. everyone was like cheering and clapping at some parts. my fave was the dog part. SPOILERS WARNING> haha the part where it fell out of the window cos baby liked fresh air. gawd it was so hilarious i almost died. the girls screeching and the retarded black guy. oh oh and that vanessa carlton song. i swear i'll never see 1000 miles in the same way again after that retard guy sang it with the actions. i'm playing it now. oh good grief i nearly died laughing la.
after the movie we went to meet ron and yu ching at the cine food court. i was irritating them with the "i'm so gonna have a BF" thing. haha my fave phrase of the moment! fong haaates it. but there was a bit of a debate over some thing... and whatever la. later me and steph went to lido to catch vanity fair. we had sometime to kill so we had to accomplish ahem Fong's Mission. haha.
well vanity fair was good. but it was so sad!! so i was like telling fong we should've watched vanity fair first then laugh it off with white chicks. but it was very...thought provoking? but still depressing. SPOILERS> i can't believe her husband died! i half expected when she went to india she would find him and happily ever after. but...but...not. fong told me to get over it. haha. give me sometime to absorb the harsh ending!! now i finally understand why everyone said the ending was like, HUH?!
haha we went home from there. was a good day spent!

todayy... today was booring... but i needed a rest from all that running around. i'm getting old la huh. lazed around all morning... and afternoon.... evening... then went for PW in the night. sigh. tmr i have PW again. i tell u PW is the bane of my existence. i'm so glad its at least after the promos or i'll seriously kill.
theres some BBQ thingie at lilin's house tmr. dunno if i'll go or not. PW how?

enjoying life for now** TTTKA eveyone!!! haha!! (Time To Totally Kick Ass for all those
goondunadens who haven't watched white chicks. go watch!!!)

4:18 AM

Saturday, October 02, 2004

today all the pent up stress in me finally broke. i think my system just rejected all the tension and stress and all. but i feel loads better after ranting and letting everything out. was supposed to go meet rach lang and cindy in town for a short while but i dint go in the end. was feelin real lousy. and i'm sick now too.
why mee.

steph- for always calming me down when i freak out and providing inspirational stories (like ashton's cramming), and in general putting things into perspective. oh also for the free tuition. love u loadss fongkus!!! eh we so hafta go treat ourselves after promos la huh. all the future plans we keep whining about now. you'll always have a fren in me muaaack.
jeremy-heyy i'm real sorry if i shocked you just now... u called at the wrong time. or right time in a way, for being there when i really needed someone. haha what can you say you're the oracle. but i'm still the better oracle. the sunshine song was damn cute. thanx for the motivation alwayss.

8:28 PM