Monday, November 13, 2006

i really need to get my studies back on track.
i'm up now its 5am i'm feeling damn down with the sudden revelation that i'm totally and very lost for certain modules.
some stuff is making me question what is really going on with (Someone). why do i waste my time being bothered about doubting. you're not even someone of significant importance to me.
i really just wanna escape all of this. i'm giving up trying alr. fail the fucking module for all i care.
everyone's asleep. i need to talk to someone before i frustrate myself into a ditch
i know i sound incoherent. i intend to.

5:51 AM

Thursday, November 09, 2006

well well. guess who's not busy enough to blog. no. guess who's busy but not bothered enough, to blog. this lack of urgency seems to be some sorta defence mechanism to block out HORRIBLE TERRIBLE things which upset my aspired state of utopian balance. in other words exams suck!! and breakouts suck!! stupid stress breakout right on schedule la

but. i'm a happy girl :) today me and olivvyy went to do our pedi. haha dont give that look. i need some pampering to rest and relax from all this tiring stress. insert theatrical sigh. haha. polished black with pink stars, and with all the the therapeutic rubdowns and stuff thrown in. heaven :) the place is the only time when i actually finish chrysanthemum tea willingly. haha
went to macs after tho we didnt manage to chat for long cos i had to leave. but was good... now we have pretty, clean and happy feets! I KNOW its feet la haha just being twitty

my hair feels blah. i've gone thru everything i could've to experiment with it- short.. bangs, long fringe. sorta long. streaking, ashblond highlights, brown dyed. very mad (obviously) and impulsive blue to silver streaks. haha.. hmmm. DIY dye many many times cos of cj.
anyway now my next phase is growing it out as long as i can. haha usually i get bored and impatient halfway so as conventional as simple long hair is, i've never really reached it. not in recent times anyway.. i mean in pri school all little girls worth their salt would have hair as long as possible. but thats long ago so not counted haha. so anyway i've been whining bout getting curls. not the princessy dolly-girl kinda cutesy ringlets/curls eeyer ( no offence btw. just not my kinda thing. hurrs).. a more rumply look i guess. anyway i showed jans a pic of "Hair I Want" the other day, and i mentioned it to olivia today too and the unanimous answer was that i should wait. i know its true la waves look better if its longer i guess. but still. i hate waiting for hair to grow long. *tugs hair

anyway i should really go study lahh. i'm home alr today... bumming around with renno chatting about stupid guys and stuffs. our sister chats seem to be more common nowadays. haha i guess abscence makes the heart grow fonder. or maybe all of us have hit our quarter-life crises at the same time.gahh.

11:53 PM

Friday, November 03, 2006

hmmm. seems so long since i'd last blogged but really, its just been a week. i dunno if this perceived notion is necessarily a good thing. cos if you think about it. if a week seems long, means we have 3 more very long lovely weeks to study for finals. but it also means we suffer an agonizingly drawn out death.
ok ok the stress is obviously making me go off tangent. we only have 3 more friggin weeks to bloody finals. hell! my happy world finally crashed around me today when i started plannin my study schedule.

1) i'm super lost in econs. damn that heck care attitude of mine. too lazy too unmotivated too slack too opposed and just too unbothered to go for lect. if theres such a word. oh well. luckily now he's doing something called game theory which seems rather interesting cos it taps into the recesses of the human mind. if you see it in a naff way =P
2) my prog sucks. period.
3) theres so much itty bitty details to remember about the statutes for legal. throw in all our lovely torts and vitiating factors, oh yes and the whole chunk on contract law, sale of goods. interlectual prop. you REALLY start to question the recesses of the human mind here. its like they come up with every single possible situation a paranoid mind can come up with. maybe i should go into law making. hurrs. humans are such complex creatures.
4) i have no idea how to study for mno. its super fun but the content is so ambiguous!
5) i don't think i can cram in everything
so counting all those. minus the genes and soci breadth.. lesse. well that's everything. i think this time panic is justified.
aieeeeeeeeeeee!!!!

hmmm. lets all take a moment to be rational. i need to go to my happy place.
well technically i'm supposed to have started the study movement today but of course i never got down to it. typical haha... sigh. supposed studying in a conducive central lib env ended up in a classroom in the arts fac laughing at their nonsense and funny antics. or me and jans leaving to wander around forum having heart to heart talks. or walking to arts canteen to gossip. or walking to biz to get my yummy sausage. or...... well put it this way. i got thru half my lecture notes. of one lecture. gahhh.
all too soon we decided to go for dinner. haha. ended up at ikea where i had.... potato salad. haha i know how goondupaded right not eating the meatballs. i must've looked like some diet concious skinny bitch. i was still full from the sausage!!
and now. i'm supposed to be studying but guess what got the better of me. the lure of blogging and the temptation of chatting.

so all you suffering souls out there busy worrying bout not coping for finals. join my team. we want you.

i'm so dead.

the oct babies:

oliva: happy 19th darl! your bday was one hell eventful one. no regrets so stop bothering about whatever it is! i bet someone had fun anyway right *wriggles eyebrows. no more bites/kisses/licks. anyway book the pedi soon lalala...my nails are like fugly. lets go lets go. haha
don't ever change. *hug

kelly: happy bday kellykins! haha so once again we were later than the bday girl. we all seem to be afflicted by this disease. haha anyway come to loserland again to look for us nus prisoners in the dead of the night you lil monster. muack.

steph: happy bday ma stephhy weff!! you are SUCH a party poops la. so much for our lovely surprise. you could've at least acted surprised we were outside what. poof. hhaha my first attempt at Surprise at the House summore. somehow i thought it'll be more eventful. that shijue. haha. anyway hope it brightened you up ma lil worried dear. don't bother so much yupps. hmms dinner at sushitei again soon i have cravings for it suddenly. haha.

gerald: cherald! happy bday doods! haha even with my lousy pangsai memory i still remembered! haha don't let them bully you in army ok. keep in touch =)

11:33 PM