black flowers bloom
There's a place off Ocean Avenue
Where I used to sit and talk with you
We were both 16 and it felt so right
Sleeping all day, staying up all night
Staying up all night
There's a place on the corner of Cherry Street
We would walk on the beach in our bare feet
We were both 18 and it felt so right
Sleeping all day, staying up all night
Staying up all night
If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away
There's a piece of you that's here with me
It's everywhere I go, it's everything I see
When I sleep, I dream and it gets me by
I can make believe that you're here tonight
That you're here tonight
If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
I know somewhere, somehow we'll be together
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away
I remember the look in your eyes
When I told you that this was goodbye
You were begging me not tonight
Not here, not now
We're looking up at the same night sky
And keep pretending the sun will not rise
Be together for one more night
Somewhere, somehow
If I could find you now things would get better
We could leave this town and run forever
I know somewhere, somehow we'll be together
Let your waves crash down on me and take me away
aiyah so now i'm just bummin around being bored. oh yesterday i cleaned out my room. big mess. but i felt so different lookin at all my mg stuff. i really miss my sec school days! now jc is like so stressful!! in more ways than one. in sec school everythin was plain and simple*
i dunno. like when i went back to my old sch, i had that same feelin. i felt so...different. i dunno how else to describe it. like i was so apart. you know, like a totally...different part of my life thats like gone and forgotten. i hate that. so i kept lots. i won't forget ever!
like the keep pile was so much with even stupid rubbish like chinese ting xie books and shit. then the throw pile had like few pieces of paper, wrappers, history books...real rubbish la. basically most were kept haha. and i'm till strugglin with all my stuffs. the storage!
i really gotta go visit the school and everything one day. it sucks that they're giving mgs a whole image overhaul. after my ten years in it. it'll just look totally diff with no memories.
when i was chucking some of the stuff back in the store room, i came across some of my dog's things. and i felt even worse then ever. her leash and shampoo and fur brushes and all. all along it seemed alrite to ignore the silence in the house, everything that reminded me of her prescence. the only time when i really cried missin her was when i looked at her photos so i just closed them all. left them aside and didn't dare to look at them. when i saw her things. i felt so terrible i really wanted to just scream. but. i wan't going to do that in front of my mum and my sister, they'll think i finally went off from all that stress. so i just got outta there, pronto.
after that i didn't feel like clearing any more so i just went to take a shower.
i really really miss my dog.
agapi agnos*love and innocence.
like monday la. shar came my house first. i was like totally not knowing what to wear. in the end i settled for this black top shar was super against. she said it looked like some mad slasher got me. hahaaa.. well anyway later we went to audrey's house to bum around. she did our make up. and addy kept calling and pissin shar off. haha! the twit didn't know what to wear ok. if u think i'm the most undecisive dumbass when it comes to clothes u haven't met addy. my god. in the end she went to buy jeans. what can i say huh. shes a metrosexual. haha. and "ur supposed to be a bung!" quoted from shar. so later we went to eat at scotts. when we went to china black. it was like so ooo crowded. my god. we were waitin around for audrey's fren to get us our fake ids. turns out u know what. he said it was like damn hard cos as many as like 10 ppl were like sharing one id. sheesh. i was all ready to go home. i mean it was kinda hot and really i was like aiyah no hope. but audrey and shar wanted to try. so we queued first la huh/
the bouncers were like extra strict that night. i think it was cos of the supposed rumour about there being a police raid. call me chickend hearted or whatever but seriously. i was allll ready to go home. i mean imagine calling m mum at like 1 am. "hey mum. sleeping well. oh by the way can u swing by the police station tmrw morning and bail me out?" i'll be screwed for life.but oh nooo. shar was all hyped up. yea. anyway the bouncers went to the extent to scanning the ids or wrting down the ids or something. well the point was if we reused the ids, they would know cos there was a double. so. many ppl were also unwilling to lend la huh. cos the bouncers would confiscate the ids. sheesh. we were like mad scouting for ids. if we had known it would've been like that. we would've just borrowed in advance la huh.
so we queued and waited. in the end we didn't get our ids. so we didnt get in. that is like the really cut down version. i tell you the confusion we had to go thru. no sense in describing it. yea. in the end we didn't get in. sigh man. all that time wasted.addy got in tho. she got some fake id from her fren before going to china black. really look like her.
i wasn't really disappointed. i kinda expected something like that to happen. shar was visibly annoyed tho. haha she and audrey. poor darlings. one day k girlies!
well then we sat outside. worrrying about sherlene. i tell u ah. damn poor thing la that girl. she showed the bouncer her fake id borrowed from someone inside. the bouncer took one look. she is like damn kiddie looking la. short and cute. enuff said.
later she was actually sittin with us outside when the bouncer called her and brought her to the office. wanted to call the coppers. shakes head. thing is, she sounded pretty calm. if it had been me i would've run shrieking away before they got me, or if they did and i was sittin in the office waitin for the police, i would've been in tears ok. when we talked to her she seemed to be fine., ?!?
well anyway. we decided no sense in sittin around with the rest outside. we met this gal outside who got bounced. so all of us were pretty much complaining and bitching about*someone. haha. we saw liwen and zarine outside too. i know liwen got bounced but dunno about zarine tho.
we decided to get drinks for mac's. then me and shar went to sit at the steps outside mango when omg. i realised i didn't have my hp with me. shit shit shit. so me and shar ran back to mac's. the staff said they didn't see it. then they started to laugh like they thot it was a joke. bloody freaks. when we went back to find audrey she was with her fren. eventually they found out what happend. so he and his fren started help us find too. one of the guys was from cj la. i think he's called kaifeng? sorry if i got that wrong dude. too disoriented. well anyway earlier i had met him while queing and he told me he knew i was frm cj. shock. then he said he and his frens noticed that mgs girl. am i that gossip worthy huh. bah. but he said no bad stuff. hehe. well i found out he was frm cjctoo j2 and in arts. haha. that explains why i haven't seen him before la.
so anyway kaifeng and audrey's fren whose also his fren. ok whatever. they helped us look for it. they went back and asked the counter staff again. quite seriously. this time they became serious, maybe a bit worried. they called the manager out. we wanted to see the security tape. but she said it wasn't allowed. i was damn tempted to rush back there and search the whole damn counter.
then! then. remember this part. i definitely did. i still haunts me. audrey said,"eh why dun u ask that guy there if he saw your hp. he was behind shar in the queue." she points to this freak in like this horrendous striped tee that looked like he got dressed in the dark ok. just tehn the manager said they would make the exception for us with the tape, after kaifeng and his fren argued logic with her la( i mean like if they showed us the tape 2 days later isn't it kinda of out of point?)
i had half a mind to go there and ask but i bloody hell said, " no la lets go see the tape first. better not any how accuse ppl"
so we all trooped in. they took a long while viewing the tape first, and not letting us in. finally they let me in and showed me the last part, almost convincing me that i had indeed took my fone. but i knew it wasn't la ok. "thats the straw wrapper i took". then i got shar in. we watched the tape together.all of us. cos eventually everyone came in despite the staff sayin only one person. haha. and guess what. we saw it. we saw that devil doing it. stripey guy.
i ordered first. and went to the side to get a straw. being the scatterbrain twit i was i totally absentminded about my fone left there. i was holding 2 items when i came, my wallet and fone, holding two when i left my wallet and drink. so i clean forgot.
shar had cut into his queue and ordered. then good ol oliver twist and his fast hands just swiped the fone off when his turn came. fucker. it was that guy with the stiped shirt. my god. when i ran outside, he was gone.
as u can imagine i was really kicking myself. and the thick skinned barstard was still sittin there earlier eatin while i was fretting. even when audrey pointed him out and i almost went there. still warmed his ass on the chair not moving.
kaifeng suggested maybe he went into china black. so they got their fren to go in to check. the fren look quite paikia la ok. so when they explained that the guy took my fone, the paikia went, "i take from him la." like all gungho and gangster. i thot it was so funny! even when i was like mega freaking out i could feel myself needing to laugh/ amusing. the fren came out and apparently he wasn't in there. so kaifeng and his fren went up to check too.
later when they came down they said he wasn't there. shortly after, they left and we left. me and audrey shared a cab. haha. after all that happened we are still kinda thinking whethter or not to go next mon. haha. this time its kaifeng/audrey's fren's party. so kaifeng gauranteed us that we would get in. haha audrey's damn keen! but shar would be away i think. audrey tried to convince her to stay. still trying. hehe.
actually we met lilin and eunice later. were supposed to meet them at china black. but after waht happened i was so grouchy i declined eunice's offer of a fake id. now i know where to get it next time. haha.
anyway i dunno if they were sleepy or what, but my parents didn't give me a very hard time about the hp.. i mean even now. like 2 days later. still no explosion. i'm thankful for that.i concluded it had to be retribution. i lied to my mum about the whole thing. then my hp got stolen and i didn't get in.
ok i feel bad enough about it already! now please just lay off!
loads of thanx to: shar pok. hey babe i know u super hadta go but still stayed.thanx for being a fren when i needed one *muuaak
audrey hey babe lookin forward to seein ya again! thanx for all ya help and ur good memonry ^_^. maybe next time we'll be luckier! haha/
kaifeng and his fren(sorry i didn't get your name!) thanx dudes. you guys rock! haha sorry about wastin yout nite partayin away. but really thanx for all the help, we would've just gone hysterical and panicked like mad if you guys didn't think up all the suggestions, like the tape thingie. cheers!
and the bloody dick head who has my fone now. usually i dun like to curse ppl. but for u poppet i shall make an exception, u bloody fucking barstard child. i hope u burn in hell for all eternity and fall down the stairs and break your legs. if i see u in town again i will hack your dick off and hang it around my neck then i'll throw it into kallang river and let it rot in there. fuck u wuss dun bloody go hide in china black ok. what an idiot. i really really hate u. pure unadultered hate hate hate.