Friday, December 29, 2006

congratulate me.
on wed i broke my personal best and set a new milestone in (1) fuckingly embarrassing moments and well generally (2) fucked up moments.
i swear it was something in the drinks *nods seriously. really hardly ever am i that horrendously zonked out!!

and the worst part. i was so bloody unconcious i didnt even have the prescence of mind to save my own ass. guess who found me totally gone on the couch at 5plus in the friggin morning. my daddy. it gets better. my mum woke up too.
they had stood there, obviously blinking in disbelief, breathing in the smell of alcohol and puke, looking at their lil girl with smeared makeup and dishevelled hair, dead as a doorknob.
my dad even caught jan+wg who were trying to "run away" after seeing him awake. seriously i cant decide if i should've cried, cos when my mum told me after i gained a relative sense of awareness in the morning, my first instinct was to laugh. and i think i did haha

actually i was damn amazed. most of the time everyone would be asleep when i get home, but i thought all along they had some sorta inkling at least of my drunken escapades but just closed one eye. i mean all the times i came back stumbling around making a racket and falling asleep on the chairs, or renno coming to get me from downstairs or outside the gate after a panic call from my loves, or even that rare time when my dad was awake and shijue had to get me past his studyroom (hii shijuee! haha).
they really had no idea. they really thought i was sipping orange juice. amazing. i hope my face didnt show it when my mum sat me down and gave me the Talk. "unwholesome... unbecoming..." all that. again i dunno wth was wrong with me but i had this urge to laugh so i settled with snickering into my pillow. it reminded me of this time one of my super taitai-fied aunties was giving my cousin a nagging over "hanging about with hooligans"- haha wtf?! that time i really really couldnt laugh cos my aunt is really like prim about this kinda thing.
anyway i gave my mumsy my bambi eyes and told her i dunno what happened cos i never got drunk before. you mean its called getting drunk? haha i didnt say that of cos but i hope i looked it. anyway i found out my dad was still awake cos he had a flight in the morning. of all days seriously.

but actually i'm damn proud of my parents. haha i thought they handled it well. alrite alrite its cos i didnt really get a scolding. but honestly they could've gone psycho and like screamed in my face and kicked me out or whatever. they kinda let me sleep it off then bathe everything before nagging. nagging was bad definitely but i felt at least they did it rationally, not made it into this huge screaming match. my mum sorta thought the part they tried to escape from my dad was kinda funny (thanx loves. saved me!). well maybe cos technically i'm alr past 18 yrs old so well. it isnt illegal or anything. all i can say is thank god they didnt catch me when i was still in JC. i'll be disowned on the spot la.
i also realised that my bratty pest of a sister is not that bratty and pesky laa haha. i was thinking about it after the events of that day and she's actually gotten me out of trouble and covered up for me lotsa times. hrmmm. maybe the next time i wont have such muderous intent when she borrows my things :)

to all those who were traumatised by the extra bad bout that day- dont look at me i have no frickin idea why either.
esp to the lady love jan- for going hysterical and rushing to haul the halfdead from sheares, i love you darling! hugs :) . to wg-you always seem to be caught in the drunken crossfire. haha well you hit jackpot that day-both horrendous drunks in the same cab. going from ms to clementi to hall to braddell back to clementi. my god i'm getting motion sick just typing it :) valerie guanghong boyan and his friends-half of them prob arent reading this which is a good thing cos maybe i shouldnt remind them of what i put them thru. i'm soo sorry for the ruckus at sheares and the puke. hope i didnt scare anyone senseless haha.
AND omg. the chosen few know why it was the WORST of it. hopefully no one else does huh! so embarrassing *squeal! take it to your graves you hear. cringe.

2:09 AM

Monday, December 25, 2006

today i finally went to church.. just got home. i've been missing church for some time, and as much as i'd like to say its because i've been so overwhelmed and busy with school work and deadlines, its not really the case huh. sometimes like planned other things or just being damn lazyy. before i'm branded the worse sunday school helper on earth i kinda stopped a few months into school. it was supposed to be a factor in motivating me to go to church regularly and it did! until i stopped. then it was back to infrequent church attendance. rahh. i'm admittedly not a staunch Christian- no one in my family is actually, and my dad is a buddhist. but at christmas service today i felt an overwhelming sense that i've really distanced from Him, esp in the past few months. i dont want to make this a born-again Christian cliche thing, but i really feel like i've just been so selfishly caught up in my life and issues. anyway i've never been one for resolutions bcos i think its dumb to ruin NYE with silly determinations like "i resolve to do all my homework in the coming year" but i've made a promise (i'm not using the R word haha) to keep the faith, starting by trying to at least go back to Him every sunday. if this sounds all too familiar, it is- only this time i hope i'll have enough determination to see it thru!

i remember when i was in primary school in one of the sunday school lessons, we were taught not to write christmas as "Xmas", because there was a reason why its originally spelt "Christmas". some might say its a small thing but i guess i still believe it which is why i never use "Xmas". anyway presents, food and all that heartwarming greed aside, dont forget what its all about. MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!!

ok i tried to add this super funny video but as usual the computer's being a bitch. it started it! haha eh cmon la i'm not some techno fanboy so one step at a time! hehe. anyway watch!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X6TGYtdGXsM

omg its soo funny la when i watched it i almost died laughing. this guy is damn hilarious like the one with donald rumsfeld. you really wonder how he sits around and thinks up all this nonsense.

anyway.off to nap now... meeting the jermy later. against his better judgement i've managed to convince him to jump on the rest of the kiasu singaporean bandwagon so we're going to orchard rd on christmas night to enjoy the atmosphere and chaos. yay!

5:43 PM

Sunday, December 24, 2006

christmas eeve. and guess what i havent gotten anyone their presents! lalala. haha i HATE buying presents. dont i sound like the grinch. its not lack of time or budget issues (ookay maybeee a teensy bit hehe) or even the crowds (weirdly i kinda think it adds to the festivity. oh wells.) its just having to think of something worthy and unique enough for those special ones which is really really agonizing. see how important you all are. haha
to all ma goondupads this year's presents are gonna be late (as usual. i'm sorry!) here's an IOU hug. and esp to those i have serially owed presents for many years.. you know who you guys are.. you get an extra IOU kiss too MUAK! promise i'll get this lazy ass moving soon! and. thanx to those for the presents so far! loves.

yday was a weird day, bad even. well the earlier part la.
when i finally got myself down to town i had the worse case of cramps ever. hell it didnt even feel like cramps.. i couldn't even stand properly, like i was doubled over in pain. i thought shijue passed me her food poisoning cos her germyy germs jumped onto me when i sat next to her on the bus that day eeyerr (heehee hi shijuee!). haha so kidding. but honestly i thought it was food poisoning cos i also felt pukey. so i had to cancel my plans and my haircut! now i'm going to go thru christmas looking like an untidy cavewoman. grrr. NOT new years!!
anyway i couldnt take it anymore so i made it down to the cab stand. guess what. there was a big ol family in front of me with a lady in the wheelchair. i was damn irritated and i think it was written all over my face. i knowww i know! its so mean and it wouldnt have made much of a time difference but seriously dont even try to reason with me when i'm in a bad mood (ma jeremyy should know :) )
so finally after a relatively long wait i eventually dragged myself into the cab. as we were turning out of far east suddenly we jerked and the cab driver muttered a really audible "SHIAAT" haha. by then i was alr curled up behind trying to sleep to close off the pain so i ignored it. then i realised the reality of this prolonged torture when the cab driver suddenly got out of the car. in my semi-concious state i propped myself up and guess what. he hit the guy in front! or the guy in front bumped into him. whatever it was i wasnt interested- lisa.wanted.to.get.home.asap. it wasnt even that serious!! just a few scratches on the other guy's car. so kiasu la. so after saying "sorry arrh just wait a while", mr cab driver and the yuppie in front got out and did the customary checking and polite arguing. if i wasnt writhing in pain, hell it would've been super exciting la. i would've gotten out and added to the furore since well, i was a key witness. but i was horribly sick and dying. almost. so while those two were out there taking snapshots of their lovely excursion i was getting more and more annoyed at the backseat and asking "why me".
then the uncle came back suddenly and said "miss i'm very sorry ah. if you want you can take another cab". at the same time we both glanced toward the taxi que which now reached subway. summoning whatever strength i had i managed to mutter "uncle. i am sick and i'm in pain. can you please hurry up." i know i was being super rude and nasty with my un-christmas attitude but i couldnt help it!! thankfully enough they wrapped up quite fast after that and i just didnt have the strength to respond to the uncle's conversation after that so he just rambled on a monologue about the accident. poor uncle.
damn i wish i hadnt been sick la :( missed the excitement.

when i got home i took panadol and crashed into bed. i woke up about 8 plus so everything around was dark.. but when i tried the lights guess what. the fuse blewww!!! omg. so here i was standing in the semi darkness. luckily the kitchen lights worked, must've been a separate circuit or smth. but the fuse box was in my dad's study which is rather dark and foreboding. so i called baby and talked to him when i went in to reset the switches. see what i mean by bad day.
haha talking about blackouts and such. i remember there was once i was bathing around 3 plus in the morning. creepy enough with all those bathroom horror shows like the grudge and what lies beneath and all that (when will i ever learn haha). anyway suddenly. the lights went out. i'm NOT scared of the dark ok i just have an overactive imgination. i felt my hairs stand. so i turned to get out quickly and run out of the bathroom. then. i saw this form of a silhouette of girl in the gloom in front of me. i froze.
and i actually screeched. really loudly in fact haha. then i told myself to be brave and calm down, and after about a split second rationality caught up- i realised it was merely a shadowy relflection on the shower door. hahahaha. apparently my scream was louder than expected cos when i went to look for my mum i found out she woke up. and was not very happy. so farrrnyy right. hahaha.

anyway back to yday. amazingly when i woke up my cramps were gone! yipee yay yay. then i started to wonder if i should go club cos apparently if you take panadol and drink you'll die. hey, i didnt come up with it so dont look at me man. well i decided i'd take my chances and i guess i'm not dead so too bad! of course your results may vary. haha. actually i think the alcohol should help the pains and stuff.. cos isnt it good to like take a glass of wine everydya or smth. close enough i guess.

so today's been a lazyyy sunday afternoon... i didnt make it to church again. sigh. been bumming about in my pjs, currently snacking on those biscuits with the icing on top we used to eat as kids- being a sloth in general. this is damn terrible. i think i'll go watch tv haha.
after this is christmas dinner at prego with the family minus dad

4:47 PM

Monday, December 18, 2006

yday when i left the house i had a huge thundercloud over me. feeling down, kinda exhuasted from the tantrums, and shivery cos of the weather. i love this kinda weather BUT only near christmas. it kinda creates the illusion of psuedo winter and snow cos boring ol spore is too close to the equator. at other times of the year its kinda a nuisance, and like my mood then, when you're feeling crappy it jsut makes you wanna cry.
anyway i was in a right lil foul mood and woe be to anyone who happened to step on my toes. literally and metaphorically- i was wearing my new heels! in a half hearted bid to inject some happiness into the day.rarr.
anyway i popped by town for a while before going cityhall. after my wax appt finished guess what. i stepped out to find that it was raining! ughs. i had to get to the train station or i would be late. so i did the noble thing and decided to run in the rain (SEE EVERYONE lisa does make the efffort and is not intentionally fashionably late no matter what suspicious things your mind whispers to you. haha). of course needless to say this further spoiled miss sunshine's mood, and one of those performances at paragon made the crowd even more... crowded. haha.
so i waited under the paragon shelter until i saw the traffic lights change. when it did i ran there, or rather tried to, in my heels and the slippery floor. i dunno if i was extra slow or the lights were extra fast but it changed back to red man. well.
i wasnt about to stand there and get drenched. so i looked around and... this cute hot adonis offered to share his umbrella with me! haha i'm superly kidding la. but. it was close enough!... minus cute minus hot and minus adonis. the nicest thing was before i could even approach anyone, this lady walked up to me and just put the umbrella over my soaked and sodden self. dont really know how to describe her, not old not teenage young either- put it this way i found out she was a nurse, 26 or 27 i think she said. before all you hot blooded ones start thinking aobut that kind of nurse, she seemed more of the motherly type, a lil chubby.
nothing like walking down orchard road in a downpour, sharing a shelter with a total stranger, making small talk about christmas crowds and shopping, to really make the christmas spirit real.
just a simple lil act made a bad day and a potentially worse one, different. she prob didnt realise but i was in a hell better mood after that.
i love the way christmas makes everyone warm and fuzzy :)

Take a look at the ordinaryDont need to look at paradiseYou could be next to an angel in disguise-Corrine May

3:09 PM

Sunday, December 17, 2006

its a promise i'll always be around for you because you're all that important to me. but theres a fine line between appreciation and expectation.. dont cross that line. cos if its one thing i dont like is people taking me for granted

12:45 PM

Saturday, December 16, 2006

yday when i went online the whole msn was buzzing about results. amazing. everyone was yakking and fussing about checking results. apparently it was a leak of some sort. i thought those nus buggers broke their promise to us!! i mean PLEASE just give us a break. 26th means 26th! haha.
i finally hauled myself to the website and i was just hovering there wondering if i should type in my matric no. i was so torn between wanting to retain that shred of bliss from ignorance and the NEED to know. its either spoil my hols now or well... spoil it later. haha some tried to convince me to just check, it may release that cloud hanging over but i seriously doubted it AND wasnt about to take any chances on the last half of my hols! an wanted to help me check. stares-no, goggles- in disbelief- like i'm gonna let anyooonne see my horrendous results so paiseh!!
for all it was worth, although the choice was plainly obvious, there was still those kiasu recesses in me with the dormant aunty tendencies waiting for a moment like this.haha after weighing pros/cons, longwinded discussions, loong internal debates... in the end i decided to follow heart instead of head= not check. well no surprise there. all the kiasus are probably shaking their heads now (HOW could i pass up that headstart to see and be horrified by my ugly results?!), heck anyone with a lil bit of logic is prob wondering what the hell i'm doing. i'm not proud of my ostrich mentality but hell i'd rather have the escapist affliction than prematurely end my holiday happiness cos somebody in nus thought it'll be fun to pull some prank and throw everyone into a panic.
this decision came with a whole flurry of warnings that nus might close the website once they discovered the glitch. i was thinking like how alert can they be? besides its the weekend man. anyway turns out you shouldnt underestimate the opponent! they were faster than we expected *applauds. haha steph woke me this morning and i found out it was alr discovered and closed!
so here i am trying to decide if it turned out the way i wanted.

actually, i think i did :) haha

5:51 AM

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

i love hols! siggghh.
so far its been great...funfunfun! esp finally seeing those i havent seen for so long and missed terribly. unfortunately. i just realised with a horrible start this dreamlike existence is about to end all too soon. so. ihave resolved to pack and cram in all the bloody fun i can even if i die trying. victor said yday that he couldnt wait till school started cos he was bored of lazing around. i felt like mudering him. here i am trying to make time stretch as long as possible and there are these traitors infiltrating our efforts and working against the FOC!! haha Fun Only Club. oh well. like i said i'm determined to make use of every min of the hols even if it kills me. then i'll promise to make a new start to the new year and new sem! hahaha.
bah. everyone's a skeptic.
anyway. gotta get ready soon or i'll get killedddd!!

2:40 PM

Wednesday, December 06, 2006

blogging at jans house now! haha all night chick flick marathon. bimbo movies, FOOD icecream, chips, sprite, bacardi and baileys, air con and wearing goondupaded calvin and hobbes pjs (hers haha). haha the ultimate antiestablishment stand to anything which requires the remotest amount of brain cells, energy or logic. i LOVE!!! yipee to no exams!
shopping is greeat so far. past 2 days i've found 2 new shoes, some tops and dresses and loads of retail satisfaction haha.
baby and us (sounds weird) went for dinner and caught saw 3 after that. it was bloody gory, no pun intended haha. i know its so morbid but i'm an avid saw fan hehehe *sinister laugh. haha but i must say saw 1 was still the best after seeing all 3...after that it got a lil bit too trying-to-be-as-disturbing-as-we-can with jigsaw and his "i want to play a game" yadda yadda. anyway was good la tho i admit i did spend a large part cowering behind my hands and asking the two beside me "whats happening wahts happening". haha the Lisa Way of watching scary movies. baby thinks its a waste of the movie. bah. i enjoy it MY way *grin
anyway to neutralise the trauma of yday's Rage Against Society show, we're declaring today Fluffy and Happy shows day. gonna start our couch potatoism soon.
laterr!

10:41 PM

Tuesday, December 05, 2006

YIPPEEEEee!!
haha its overrr!
didnt necessarily end the way i wanted it to, with all my papers being CRAPPY and visions of walking triumphant outta the bloody battlefield just down the drain. more like crawling out barely alive, and clutching my sanity by a sliver. but. nothing can spoil my mood now with the whole month shopping and having fun stretching out ahead of meee! yay!! haha well the first and only logical thing nus did was to implement results day on the 26th. thank youuu for not spoiling christmas! actually, its still quite a bad deal. imagine waking up the day after all the joy and merrymaking, knowing you'll have to wait another year for the next one. now on top of that we have to face another harsh reality! ok you know what i'll whine about that when the time comes. now i have LOTSS and lotsa time anyway yipeee!
anyway after exams ended yday i rewarded myself with a big ol fat dinner at breko's- some potato thingie AND a banana stacko. absolut sin i tell you. considerign it wont do anything fo my exam breakout and how flabby i feel after weeks of being a muggerhead. okok i vow to start exercising during the hols. hurrs. when i reached home i think the feeling of unadulterated contentmnet took over me and i just crashed into bed without even bathing.haha sighhh.

anyway after this is the start to reclaiming sanity and mental wellbeing.shopping run with jans! yay! i hope i find good stuff =) then meeting that stranger of mine mr jeremy.

*life can't be any brighter. happy happy joy joy dance dance grin grin. haha

11:53 AM

Friday, December 01, 2006

3 down, 2 to go, 1 final day.
so far legal was alrite (i hope), mno was crap-able (i think), and econs was what else a shitload of shit. i won't elaborate further why bother to dwell on unpleasant things la huh. haha
so since we've reached the halfway point obviously my mood seems a lil more upbeat. but still. theres still that cloud of dread hanging over me having to face the fucking prog paper. grouch.

yawn. feeling soo sluggish to type...yday stayed up till 4 plus cramming for mno.
forget going crazy going shopping going clubbing going holiday going out going to work going tanning or starting an excercise regime (induced idealism) after exams. i'm going to hibernate. nites.

11:28 PM